#Blindside Final Thoughts

I'm going to take some time to decompress from this wild experience. I can truthfully and honestly say I had a really good time in this game, up until those last 10 seconds. 

I am super upset because I just feel as though I had so much more game to play, and I invested so much effort into this game, spending so much time on our video, the scavenger hunt, going on calls while visiting family in New York, I just poured a lot of my soul into this game and I guess I just...... feel like I let myself down. I know this is just a silly online survivor game but I really really really wanted to prove myself wrong and do well, and I am hurt because I trusted Eric and Mike so much and genuinely wanted to move forward with them and go far into this game with them, not once in my mind was I thinking hmm when should I cut them. 

The thing that sucks the most about this is, I don't know if I can handle another skype game after this. The feeling of going home so early by the hands of people I cared about so much has left me feeling really shooken up. I am not going to cry about it (besides the initial tears of shock) or hate anyone or try and meddle or cause problems or anything other than move on and watch the game from a viewers perspective..but I just really trusted my "friends."

Ahhh Survivor is so beautiful because you can end up with 4 people who you worked so closely with and get blindsided by a whim and you can get sent home because people like you TOO MUCH. I will never know if they really liked me or just were over me, they are going to say it was because I was too likable but I don't know if that is the case. I guess I just feel a little insecure. 

Either way, Conquest was a hell of a ride and I am glad I took part in it. 

Good luck everyone! <3