day 8- fuck this, i need vodka right now. lots of vodka.
Nov 14, 2015 1:07:58 GMT
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Post by Lindsay on Nov 14, 2015 1:07:58 GMT
so basically, i'm the target tonight. patrick's acting like it's the hardest thing ever. i think he's worried there might be a returnee twist or secret tribe- it felt like a horrid attempt at jury management. i know he's got IRL stuff going on but nothing he said made sense. i said a whole long bit in the tribe chat and NOW people are messaging me saying they feel bad (hahahahaha right), but like, the whole thing's weird. regan was the auto-boot from day one. patrick hated her. so how did that suddenly change?
it's probably because i've met kevin daliva.
i said on night one that for full disclosure's sake, i knew brandon, corey, stephen, and kevin, but not too well- kevin and i met a year ago in person but have barely spoken since, stephen is friends with my boyfriend (and me, like great friends, but i played that down a ton bc i don't like allying with stephen in games), corey hosted me in pro and that's it, and brandon and i still have our issues from our two rivalries in chronicles. yeah, all they heard was "lindsay met kevin" and i'm toast now. people were being straightforward about stuff, so i decided to be, too. better to be honest than to look sneaky. i saw that happen in pro4- didn't end well for anyone at all. but nope. bit me in the butt.
i'm not going down without fighting. it's beyond my control that i had to work a ton this week, and that my parents hate when i'm on skype. i'm fixing part 1 and ignoring part 2 moving forward, in this game and otherwise. it was hard to get into the call or conversation when i wasn't part of the challenge, and when it ended, i was working and then had to be quiet at home. the whole enchilada fucking sucked. and now nobody is directly saying "if you make an argument to stay, i'm with you." an 8-1 vote is more important to them than having someone that can and will contribute to every win.
fuck this. i'll probably make a giant scene at live tribal just to go out with a bang, since there's probably no way i'm getting any of these guys to vote with me. the groupthink and all that zeitgeist bullshit is so real rn.
if this is my last confessional (which, lbr, it prob is, even if i fight like hell), major love to the hosts for inviting me to join this season after my hiatus from games- i wish i could play longer, and i've loved it so much. y'all are fab. to MADISON, ashlee, jamie, ryan giovanni, dr. delish, and jordan- thanks for bothering to read my rants. you're all perfect humans.
fuck the rest of you. resident whiny bitch, peacing out.
it's probably because i've met kevin daliva.
i said on night one that for full disclosure's sake, i knew brandon, corey, stephen, and kevin, but not too well- kevin and i met a year ago in person but have barely spoken since, stephen is friends with my boyfriend (and me, like great friends, but i played that down a ton bc i don't like allying with stephen in games), corey hosted me in pro and that's it, and brandon and i still have our issues from our two rivalries in chronicles. yeah, all they heard was "lindsay met kevin" and i'm toast now. people were being straightforward about stuff, so i decided to be, too. better to be honest than to look sneaky. i saw that happen in pro4- didn't end well for anyone at all. but nope. bit me in the butt.
i'm not going down without fighting. it's beyond my control that i had to work a ton this week, and that my parents hate when i'm on skype. i'm fixing part 1 and ignoring part 2 moving forward, in this game and otherwise. it was hard to get into the call or conversation when i wasn't part of the challenge, and when it ended, i was working and then had to be quiet at home. the whole enchilada fucking sucked. and now nobody is directly saying "if you make an argument to stay, i'm with you." an 8-1 vote is more important to them than having someone that can and will contribute to every win.
fuck this. i'll probably make a giant scene at live tribal just to go out with a bang, since there's probably no way i'm getting any of these guys to vote with me. the groupthink and all that zeitgeist bullshit is so real rn.
if this is my last confessional (which, lbr, it prob is, even if i fight like hell), major love to the hosts for inviting me to join this season after my hiatus from games- i wish i could play longer, and i've loved it so much. y'all are fab. to MADISON, ashlee, jamie, ryan giovanni, dr. delish, and jordan- thanks for bothering to read my rants. you're all perfect humans.
fuck the rest of you. resident whiny bitch, peacing out.
